The Workings Out of a Heart Not Fully Formed Yet

I write because I dream: I see this world as a place the Kingdom of God is constantly breaking into and I want to join my King Jesus in whatever way He sees fit to bring His life, His Presence, here.

This journey has taken me all over the world and lead to encounters with incredible men and women of God: their lives have imprinted mine. This blog is a result of our conversations and questions, and a way for me to display my inner life with God, so that others may see the glory of a life given fully over to her Creator. I, and the ones I love, are no special people--we just partner with an amazing God.

We've seen suffering. We know doubt. We wrestle with where we have been and how we got there--but we will never give up. Our lives are a testament to His faithfulness.

Be Blessed as you read. Encounter the King.

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

I Am His

 
It’s just a stay up late kind of night…I’m not sure why.

To follow Jesus—it’s going to cost a lot. I will have to be misunderstood by those I love and am close to. I will have to wait for His timing in seasons when I would rather run ahead and do it my own way. I am the peasant girl who would be content with playing among the weeds and putting flowers in my hair—but He calls me to approach and enter a castle, to be robed in all that is befitting to a Queen, to preside over a court and love a people with my whole heart—enough to be willing to die for them. Sometimes I rail against this calling—I like not what it costs me. My urge to take control and escape the vague uncertainties is only succumbed by my constant fellowship with He who loves me best. Left to my own devises I will wander trackless deserts—but He calls me into the sunshine of His embrace and the joy found there. Much I have given up, but much have I been loved—and that is of the worth I would give anything for. My life is not my own, but somehow, the sting of that statement has been stayed. I no longer have the wild ready-to-bolt look of a stallion—He has calmed me with a full assurance of His love. Blessings all mine!

So I say this to You, My Love, my All-in-All: do what You will with my life. Take what You must and prune as is befitting. You know the desires of my heart—all of them placed there by You—and You will fulfill them in due season. I have only to trust in You, to keep following. Stay my wayward heart, keep it close to Yours and when it cries out—frightened and alone and seemingly far from its comfort—whisper again Your promises. As long as I can hear You, remember the promises and be reminded of love; I know all will be well. Many and long may be the roads ahead, but I travel with You, oh Love of My Heart. You lead me well.

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