End of finals week...chilling and listening to music...taking pictures with Photo Booth...
I love seeing the pictures of freedom on my face. God has brought me through a lot in these last few months. Restoring hope...bringing back peace...I need more, I will always need more. Jesus...
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Saturday, December 4, 2010
A lot has happened these past few months...a epidemic of cholera in Haiti...me learning to stand on my own two feet and lift others up as well...struggles with love--mainly over analyzation and flighty hormones...and learning to wait.
It's so funny how far I've come even in the last few months. I'm new all over again...learning to trust Him anew...learning to wait on Him anew...singing anew...dreams being reawoken even in the last few weeks...
See, this is the year when the first thing I felt God distinctly speak to me was "be content in loneliness". The second thing was "your only hope is me", ie, don't put your hope in anything else, dreams, plans, or people. The third was "wait wait wait wait wait, for glory will come if you do". Hmmm....
All of this spells out to a Robin who is trying really hard to figure it out, but has to learn to trust and not worry over the future, a Robin who finds herself falling for boys and having to pull herself back and a Robin who isn't sure how to be content. She is learning though. Her thought patterns this week are much better than they were last week. She stills obsesses over the way she looks, but she's exercising regularly and feels content with herself...comfortable in her own skin. She has made a lot of friends and is comfortable in the presence of numerous types of people. She loves the girls on her floor and has learned to invest in them and LOVES seeing their growth. They are becoming amazing people...and she knows it is all God. She gets to watch and pray as He brings about transformation in their lives...what a privilege.
Robin's favorite thing is that her Jesus speaks to her through music...classical music lately. The torrent of visible embodied creation that comes forth from someone playing an instrument masterfully brings her to tears lately. Jesus is after her heart, so completely after her heart, IT AMAZES HER. Their is no one like Him, no other lover like her Lord. That's why she chooses to stay at rest (because it is a daily choice, one I need to make, even today in this moment) and leave it all in the hands of the Lord. He is the Lover and Sustainer of her heart. He knows what she needs and is bringing a beautiful symphony to bear in the hearts of His children. All she wants to do is join along...
Lover of all, keep me content in You.
Robin is growing up, not without aches and pains, but content in the arms and the guidance of her Maker. Life is being found in her and a beauty which delights her Lord. She looks to Him alone in this time...and that's where He's always wanted her focus to be.
Beautiful mercy, do what you have to do
Jealous Lover, do what you have to do
You know the best way...
It's so funny how far I've come even in the last few months. I'm new all over again...learning to trust Him anew...learning to wait on Him anew...singing anew...dreams being reawoken even in the last few weeks...
See, this is the year when the first thing I felt God distinctly speak to me was "be content in loneliness". The second thing was "your only hope is me", ie, don't put your hope in anything else, dreams, plans, or people. The third was "wait wait wait wait wait, for glory will come if you do". Hmmm....
All of this spells out to a Robin who is trying really hard to figure it out, but has to learn to trust and not worry over the future, a Robin who finds herself falling for boys and having to pull herself back and a Robin who isn't sure how to be content. She is learning though. Her thought patterns this week are much better than they were last week. She stills obsesses over the way she looks, but she's exercising regularly and feels content with herself...comfortable in her own skin. She has made a lot of friends and is comfortable in the presence of numerous types of people. She loves the girls on her floor and has learned to invest in them and LOVES seeing their growth. They are becoming amazing people...and she knows it is all God. She gets to watch and pray as He brings about transformation in their lives...what a privilege.
Robin's favorite thing is that her Jesus speaks to her through music...classical music lately. The torrent of visible embodied creation that comes forth from someone playing an instrument masterfully brings her to tears lately. Jesus is after her heart, so completely after her heart, IT AMAZES HER. Their is no one like Him, no other lover like her Lord. That's why she chooses to stay at rest (because it is a daily choice, one I need to make, even today in this moment) and leave it all in the hands of the Lord. He is the Lover and Sustainer of her heart. He knows what she needs and is bringing a beautiful symphony to bear in the hearts of His children. All she wants to do is join along...
Lover of all, keep me content in You.
Robin is growing up, not without aches and pains, but content in the arms and the guidance of her Maker. Life is being found in her and a beauty which delights her Lord. She looks to Him alone in this time...and that's where He's always wanted her focus to be.
Beautiful mercy, do what you have to do
Jealous Lover, do what you have to do
You know the best way...
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