The Workings Out of a Heart Not Fully Formed Yet

I write because I dream: I see this world as a place the Kingdom of God is constantly breaking into and I want to join my King Jesus in whatever way He sees fit to bring His life, His Presence, here.

This journey has taken me all over the world and lead to encounters with incredible men and women of God: their lives have imprinted mine. This blog is a result of our conversations and questions, and a way for me to display my inner life with God, so that others may see the glory of a life given fully over to her Creator. I, and the ones I love, are no special people--we just partner with an amazing God.

We've seen suffering. We know doubt. We wrestle with where we have been and how we got there--but we will never give up. Our lives are a testament to His faithfulness.

Be Blessed as you read. Encounter the King.

Thursday, July 3, 2014

Questioning God?


This sums up a lot of what I believe and have had to think my way through over the last through years. Enjoy.

“After the fall from Paradise, history entered a new phase. Creation God had done by Himself, starting with nothing and ending with the universe in all its splendor. The new work is Re-Creation, and for this God employs the very human beings who had originally spoiled His work. Creation progressed through stages: first stars, then the sky and sea, and on through plants and animals, and finally man and woman. Re-creation reverses the sequence, starting with man and woman and culminating in the restoration of all the rest.
In many ways the act of Re-creation is harder that creation, for it relies on flawed human beings. Surely, it has cost God more: the death of His Son. Still, God insists on healing the world from the bottom up, rather than from the top down.
As I studied Job, it struck me that The Wager was, at its heart, a stark reenactment of God’s original question in creation: Will the humans choose for or against me? From God’s point of view that has been the central question of history, beginning with Adam and continuing on through Job and every man and woman who has ever lived. The Wager in the Book of Job called into question the whole human experiment.
Satan denied that human beings are truly free. We have freedom to descend, of course—Adam and all his descedants proved that. But freedom to ascend, to believe God fro no other reason than, well…for no reason at all? Can a person believe even when God appears to him as an enemy? Or is faith one more product of environement and circumstance? The opening chapters of Job expose Satan as the first great behaviorist: Job was conditioned to love God, he implied. Take away the rewards, and watch his faith crumble. The Wager put Satan’s theory to the test.
I have come to see Job’s trials as a crucial test of human freedom, an important issue in modern times as well. In our century, it takes faith to believe that a human being amounts to more than a combination of DNA programming, instincts of the gene pool, cultural conditioning, and the impersonal forces of history. Yet even in this behaviorist century, we want to believe differently. We want to believe that the thousand hard and easy choices we make each day somehow count. And the Book of Job insists that they do; one person’s faith can make a difference. There isa role for human beings, after all, and by fulfilling that role Job set a pattern for anyone who ever faces doubt or hardship…
Why the delay? Why does God let evil and pain so flagrantly exist, even thrive, on this planet? Why does He let us do slowly and blunderingly what He could do in an eyeblink?
He holds back for our sakes. Re-creation involves us; we are, in fact, at the center of His plan. The Wager, the motive behind all human history, is to develop us, not God. Our very existence announces to the powers in the universe that restoration is under way. Every act of faith by every one of the people of God is like the tolling of a bell, and a faith like Job’s reverberates throughout the universe.” (Philip Yancey, Disappointment with God, pg. 191-2, 194)