The Workings Out of a Heart Not Fully Formed Yet

I write because I dream: I see this world as a place the Kingdom of God is constantly breaking into and I want to join my King Jesus in whatever way He sees fit to bring His life, His Presence, here.

This journey has taken me all over the world and lead to encounters with incredible men and women of God: their lives have imprinted mine. This blog is a result of our conversations and questions, and a way for me to display my inner life with God, so that others may see the glory of a life given fully over to her Creator. I, and the ones I love, are no special people--we just partner with an amazing God.

We've seen suffering. We know doubt. We wrestle with where we have been and how we got there--but we will never give up. Our lives are a testament to His faithfulness.

Be Blessed as you read. Encounter the King.

Saturday, March 14, 2015

On Spring[ing Into Life]


“For His invisible attributes, namely, his eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly perceived, ever since the creation of the world, in the things that have been made.” Romans 1:18

I always say that if I hadn’t become a Christian, I would be a hippy. I have a let-me-wander-through-the-flowers-all-day, starstruck giddiness about the great outdoors and (almost) everything natural. If I want people to know anything, it’s the goodness of Him, but second to that and alternately (according to Romans 1:18) leading people toward the first, is the goodness of His creation. There’s something marvelous about how flowers choose to appear and blossom every spring, how all those seemingly dead trees all of a sudden come forth bursting with and springing to life.

It gives hope, knowing that this pattern set in motion from the beginning of time will always come to be—it speaks of the everlasting faithfulness of God, which none can refute. It breathes life back into you: knowing that He takes care of His creation, leaves you with the satisfying knowing that He is good and He can take care of you. I wanted to write “once fully committed and listening to His voice” He can take care of you—but I know that that’s not entirely true. That there’s more at work—ALWAYS—the Lord sustaining the world in every bit and piece all over the world, all over the time. Yes, we see evil “triumph” seemingly in the worst circumstances but I believe He is always orchestrating and moving forth in the world to sustain, to keep us from fully committing Hare Krishna and completely obliterating any good. Yes, there are suicide bombers and those who hold the potential in their hands to transform the entire planet into a nuclear wasteland—but it hasn’t happened yet and even when humans do their worst, I believe God still steps in (with as much of His force and goodness as He can while still extending that free will He fully offered us) and keeps their plans from becoming as completely devastating as they long to be.

A faithfulness runs deep in Him that can never be refuted, no matter how torturous we are to each other or what we do to His world. He sees the glory of our lives and won’t give up on what He created, even when we do everything in our power to run from His dreams for us. There’s too much, He knows too much, about us and our futures and the depth of His love and all that He is—good, holy (He knows the right timing for all the events of our lives), faithful, true, generous, just, hopeful—there’s too much of Him for Him to ever give up on one of us. Even to the end, the last day of our lives, He stands waiting with bated breath—will they do it? Will they trust me? Will they be able to come home?

It’s far too much for our minds to comprehend (as it should be) but as we look around and just see all that He has done, let it rest on you. Goodness, a delightful plan is at the center of the universe. We have a wonderous setting in which to live out the drama that has been written as our lives—and yes, it can have pain, often man-made—for He created but then He let go. Death came, and often seems to reign, in the midst of a world where a man and woman made a choice that brought death—but the strong pulse is life—resurrection even. I believe creation speaks to everlasting life that God longs to give us—that tress may lie dormant, and seeds as well, for many months but in the end—with the right light and temperature and just a little bit of rain, it all comes springing back again, saying something about the nature of our God—He loves to see death out of life and in fact, delights in it.

He did send His Son in this manner after all, did He not? This precious one—His only Son—came to display the Father’s character, His great plan. Death came to Jesus—as it does to all born on this earth—but out of that death came life, life eternal forever never to be defeated again, EVER, and offered freely to us. It’s so simple that it seems to be profound, the Father asking, “Please believe that the life Jesus offered on the cross is life enough for you, to cover all that you have done, and that His new life, resurrection, can become all that you live out of for the rest of your days.”

It’s simple, but we make it complicated. We try to find loopholes, other ways to “save” ourselves—anything that keeps us from being known, being accountable to a being beyond our reckoning. We’re running scared, something inside us fighting against having to deend on anyone, much less a “God” who we can’t even see. It’s terrifying. How do we know that He’s good? How do we know He won’t require of us more than we can give? How do we know He won’t be even more painful thn everything we’ve already been through? Let’s just run!

And there’s a disconnect. As man becomes less and less connected with nature, our understanding of God wanes. I know, I am one of the mighty hordes of people who work for a living, making ends meet by waking up before dawn and coming home when it’s dark. Sunshine is infrequent on my skin, as I spend my days inside a building trapped into doing the work required to just make it. I yearn for the mountains I see far in the distance, the sun rising above them in a glorious display—but it is not now time for me to be a part of them…too much to be done. Pale skin, tired heart, quietly living out my life the best I can.

I know that world, I do. But I know the world before that one, in college, where every day I had a set appointment to be outside, in the middle of trees and grass and fallen logs, just me and my Maker and His book (the Bible). From where I am now it seems that I was never closer, never fuller, never more excited about life than in those beautiful months.

I encourage you—see Him today. Spend some time with a flower, a tree, marveling at unique design and flawless resurrection—at our beautiful planet, spun into motion eons ago and still lovingly cared for. Think of the God who became a man to live on this earth for us and give life to us. Ask Him to speak to you—just say His name, whisper “Jesus” and take the time to listen to His voice as He speaks. He has something to say.

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