The Workings Out of a Heart Not Fully Formed Yet

I write because I dream: I see this world as a place the Kingdom of God is constantly breaking into and I want to join my King Jesus in whatever way He sees fit to bring His life, His Presence, here.

This journey has taken me all over the world and lead to encounters with incredible men and women of God: their lives have imprinted mine. This blog is a result of our conversations and questions, and a way for me to display my inner life with God, so that others may see the glory of a life given fully over to her Creator. I, and the ones I love, are no special people--we just partner with an amazing God.

We've seen suffering. We know doubt. We wrestle with where we have been and how we got there--but we will never give up. Our lives are a testament to His faithfulness.

Be Blessed as you read. Encounter the King.

Monday, June 13, 2011

Haha...I usually don't watch Glee...but I did tonight. And boy was I glad...

The song they sang for "Nationals" was amazing. I watched it three times. And the choice Rachel was trying to make--seems like its been a reoccuring theme, something I see or read continually: your dreams or the boy?

In "Man and Boy" a British book I read last week, the women who married the main character gave up her dream of going to Japan to stay with him. In the end, they had a son and a divorce. She did get back to Japan, but all she found there after all those years was an American man who she became engaged to. And Rachel in Glee tonight...she has the voice to go to Broadway, but there's also this boy who she has loved for a long time. He wants her back--but she wants to go to New York...

The choice...

I see the end and the beginning and the bits that would have come unraveled, try as we may. So I bid adieu...

College can feel like such a crucial time. Especially at a Christian college, it can feel like its now or never!!! If you can't find a decent guy here, you probably won't find one anywhere else! At least...that can be the impression that my Christian college left...luckily, God knows better. And sure, my school had cute guys...but I have to marry a guy who has guts, brains, is sweet and has a good laugh. No ifs, ands, or buts!!! And that's a tall order to fill--possibly an impossible one...

But I know my dreams...even when they hurt me. And God knows my dreams even better. Where I see frustration and feel rage, He is already setting a plan in motion. O give me the will and ability to stay in step with You!

Because only You are the maker and tamer of dreams, the Ruler of all. I see impossibilities and weaknesses...You see strength and goodness. Where I despair and grow faint of heart, You step in with all You are. I had forgotten...O how You remind me.

I am in awe of my Creator...in Him my dreams lie complete.

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