I guess I'll lead worship everywhere but in the United States...
I think its funny and strange how God uses a life and chooses to move. I have loved all my life outside the United States and find that God uses me most when I am far from my original birthplace. Not that I have not seen Him working and been a huge part of some very special churches and communities, but the places where I am really fulfilled and feel as though I am walking out everything that He has promised me are...not..in the States.
This is just all opinion, so don't get offended or feel that I am being derogatory toward life in the States or how church operates there. That is not what this post is about. I am simply sitting here as His little child, laughing at how He has made my world work, the genuine absurdity. That I never lead worship in the States (and I tried to join a few teams) but outside that beautiful little place where my family and most of the people I love live is where I have gotten to step forward...
The first time I lead worship was as part of a team at a Mexican church. We sang songs in Spanish, so it was not only a first time leading, but my first time leading was in a language not my own (which is the most awesome thing to me ever! haha, that just fits who I am so well...) I can remember singing about "fuego" and we were a thrown together little band but we had a great time.
The second time occurred this week: a little team of fellow DTSers and I literally threw together a set list and watched God work. We literally practiced altogether for about half an hour--and mainly, it felt messy and out of whack to my poor little perfectionist, former teacher mentality--but I am learning to let go of that old way of thinking and lean into just trusting that Jesus will work more and more. That when we invite Him in and choose to let our plans get messed with a bit so He can invade our space, something beautiful happens and a piece of His heart--that we would have never had access to had we let our controlling sinful natures get in the way (because to try and control the outcome of all things rather than relinquishing control and trusting is a sin issue and if you just repent--ask forgiveness of it and search out from Him how He wants to operate...your life will be better and fuller--DO IT!).
We stepped back, offered what we had as worshippers, let the Lord lead and it was really beautiful. Truly beautiful, all the way through. I used a mic for the first time and honestly stood on the floor for a lot of it and just moved--maybe a little dancing, haha! (No stoic, sing behind the mic stand for me...hee). It was so good--when your life gets full of those moments where you find yourself coming alive and alive and ALIVE over and over again, it's a good place.
My next time is at a little Irish church here in the town of Armagh--I get to lead alongside one of my leaders this Sunday night. It's a day called Love Feast: we'll worship together and then my team is spending time sharing Original Design with the people of that church. We'll be praying into who God originally intended them to be and blessing them with any words He gives us.
It is beautiful to be used!!! Thanks for all the prayers and keep them up! Absurd, wonderful God, wonderfully working in my life!
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