The Wild Ride

Hmmm....

Now that my life has slowed down just enough to allow me to realize what I'm doing...it feels really crazy! haha, you all knew that. But it all feels really blessed. I was between doctors and needed a form signed--bam! sit next to a lady at Bible study who supervises two doctors and gets you an appointment within a week. Whoosh! Need a place to stay? Put it on Facebook and have the perfect person answer within a day...lots of little beautiful miracles--and that's all I need to launch outta here.

I guess there are all ways and wiles to get yourself out of country. A lot of people hold a regular job and raise money for a year. For me, I am just being as honest as I can about what I need (hopefully making you laugh a little along the way?) and trusting that as I move in answer to His call, He also moves to meet me with provision. That's just how this relationship works and has always worked: Father meet Daughter, Daughter meet Father.

A privileged spot, being one of His own, with its own requirements and choices I must make, as well as behaviors expected of me. I am not on my own, trying to be enough (there is always the grace to become more godly, especially as you lean into Him for strength) and that's where I find myself always, leaning into Him. Especially in the middle of this journey, when it all hits me, the choices I am making and how final I know it is...it feels really wild when I stop and let it sink in.

It also feels...almost perfect. I think the words I am trying to find are: meant to be, essential, hopeful, totally worth it. I am making this an all-in thing, no holds barred, no turning back because I feel like that is the stance need. It's a stance Christians are going to have to take in the following months to get anywhere in this changing world and it's a stance I have always been afraid of. I need to have this stance because its the one the Father had as He sent Jesus, the stance the world can't understand or accept, the stance that lets the Son of God hang on a cross. It's an incredible, awful, gravity-defying stance that can only be accepted by those who are willing to give it all away.

And that's where I'm at: just wanting to let it all go, so I can have Him completely. So I am giving away my possessions to the poor (that's essentially what you do when you have a yard sale!), looking to sell my car and dumping my limited savings into this--and whoever longs to join me, jump in! It's hilarious and ridiculous and fun and more than you can handle and all in His control--a wild ride, like Tatsu.

I rode Tatsu at Six Flags magic Mountain with my little (big) bro this summer--the first flip, where you're flying through the air and suddenly looking up into space--that was the moment the Lord was like: "This is a picture of your season! It's going to be a wild ride and a lot people won't understand but it is not your job to worry about them. It's time for acceleration, so just hold on!"

It's a wild and seemingly reckless ride...but I knew He had this planned all along.