There's been a lot going on in my life...so much to think through, dreams to examine and sharpen, ideas to process, just stuff to go through--add in needing to leave my apartment and really convincing myself that I truly was allowed to go to Ireland, like I'd been dreaming off and putting on the back burner for months--and you get a slightly stressed Robin.
Or you do without the Lord. Two days ago I was in a funk, sitting on my bedroom floor feeling paralyzed and questioning everything. But today, I am walking, talking and breathing out hope. I am looking at a place to live tonight, being effective in my work and really writing like crazy.
What's the difference? What's the secret formula? How do you go about that kind of change? (I can hear you asking, haha.)
I spent the time in prayer and sought godly counsel. That's it, truly. I am blessed at this point in my life to go to prayer meetings four times a week--it's the off season for teachers and I am being paid at this time to basically seek the Lord. Boy, do I love it. I feel like He is using this season to restore my soul in a way that is desperately needed after my incredibly busy season last year. And I so value and treasure this time of resting and waiting on Him. He's answering my prayers and building a testimony and when the next season comes, I'll be able to hit the ground running and move in Him.
I urge you to just come into an awareness of your season. In mine, at first I wanted to work really, really hard and had created a schedule for myself. It looked REALLY good and productive on paper. Robin likes that. That's not how life with God works--Robin had to adjust her expectations. When I finally asked Him what this season looked like, He said it was a time to rest and wait, because in the next one I would hit the ground running. He had me join a prayer group for my strength, not work as much as a volunteer as I'd like and guess what? I sleep in ALL the time--which I have not done for what seems like years.
You have to know your season. I urge you, take a few moments and ask Holy Spirit what He knows about the season you're in. You'll be surprised. He'll speak and make it clear. Then, take advantage of that season. If its rest, live it to the hilt. If its attack, going after what you've always dreamed of, keep leaning into Him for the wisdom to move forward joyfully and in all of His good timing. If its time to let go of dreams to focus on family, take that detour--be with and love them. If He's asking you to sow into people or a ministry or make a really big job change (maybe some transition) enjoy it.
It's there for you to enjoy, not to stress over. Don't be like me two days ago, stuck in my doubts and afraid. Be like me today, going after what He has placed in me and knowing that I have prayed through all the details and found His reassurance. He wants to reach us, He wants to heal us, He wants to love us and He wants to see us through. Trust Him in ALL of that!
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