This World is Not My Own--Only He Sees Clearly

I struggle to post this beacuse I worry that I'll be percieved as exalting myself, as though I've done something impossibly good and deserve praise. It's the opposite--I have been found so needy and lacking these seasons that I find it hard--even painful--to take a close look for myself at what I've "done". As I'm peering out at what seems to be the wreckage of my life through fingers covering my face, He gently prys away my hands and holds them in His and explains what He sees. And it changes everything.

A little something that came to me after worship at Bible study yesterday and then I'm done:

"I'm at a place in my life where most people would say, 

'You've made it!'

but I'll let it all go to possess Him

the value of knowing Him is more to me 

than any accolade from men,

any money I could pursue

I will leave it all when He says

and He has said, 'Go.'

So I walk out into the unknown,

asking for His strength and 

guidance,  knowing He will work 

out His will in me

His timing is perfect, holy and He

is working out the cross through 

me bringing purity, holiness,

righteousness--all that is good and smells

of Him--to flow out of my life in a way

that is evident to others and blesses

others. May they find Him as they look at me."