i want to live fully aware of the knowledge of You, Saviour

i want to be immersed in Your Word

i want Your Songs to flow from my lips

i want Your longings to be my longings

i need Your Courage

i need Your Love

i need that Grace which is only found in Your Sight. keep Your Eyes on me.

i'm sorry for my mistakes and my failures. i get so tired sometimes and i'm never sure if what i'm doing really honors You. i just want to rest in You...but i seem to always be striving and trying to rush ahead, when all that is needed is to sit at Your Feet. teach me to be with You in the waiting.

i'm still here, same house...slightly different people.

many days are filled with business...other days are empty and i feel unsettled--it's the american in me, the one who wants to keep going, because as long as i am busy i am useful and therefore of value, right?

God Laughs.

He loves me. i'm such a mess :)

i read the Magician's Nephew (from the Narnia series) the other day. i especially love the part where Aslan (who is representative of God) is creating Narnia...and it's all through song. Different notes create different animals, plants, hills, stars...it's so beautiful and exactly how i imagine God...always singing over us, sometimes in joy, other times in ways which bring us the healing we so desperately need.

we forget to listen though. this trip, my team had big plans to listen to God together, pray in His Son's name...but it hasn't happened yet. the first time of pray together happened yesterday--and that only because we were gathered with the other missionaries here.

pray we would be joined together--and prayer is the fastest, most glueing way (haha, is glueing a word?) we want to be joined together, strong as a team because we are strong in Him.

Our life is hidden with Christ in God.